I just realized that I didn't freak out at Halloween. I went to the party, I drank a little bit but didn't get drunk...
I partied, I had fun, I danced.
And I didn't hide, I didn't have flashbacks, I didn't rant at people who don't matter and aren't here....
It's a little weird. But I think I'm okay with it. Considering I didn't realize how bizarre it was that I had fun until this morning. And in two days, when it'll have been three years to the day that I said goodbye to Jake...I think I'll be okay with that, too.
And I have you two to thank for that. Thank you for making me have fun. Thank you for making me not hide in my room. Thank you for not letting me become an alcoholic (and I'm serious about that).
I love you.
P.S. You aren't, however, allowed to have a notsosecret love affair with Jonas just because I'm not freaking out right now. ;D
P.P.S. We should make those two go on a double date with us sometime.
P.P.P.S. This song isn't even subtle. It's like, "and then we had some hot sex and I liked it."
P.P.P.P.S. ....I just like the way that makes a little pyramid.